Wednesday November 26th 2003
Ug. Today was day one of the workshop. It started well enough… ok, that isn’t true. I find it hard to keep focused for more than 30 or so. My brain is totally fuzzy. I can’t concentrate, and I forget stuff… lots of stuff. I’m pretty sure it’s the mefloquine. I slog through the first couple of exercises.. and realize that our agenda is for shit. They are totally in a different place than advertised. They have a common view of the future, they just don’t know how to get there. This is a ‘change management’ problem… and I was prepared to do some visioning stuff. I just threw up on my keyboard…not really, but seeing these words typed out in front of me.. makes me even more ill than I feel. So, in a hurried huddle during lunch, we change the agenda. My brain is totally out to lunch. We do more stuff… then finish up. We have dinner out. It is pretty fun.. but I am really not altoghether here. I really don’t like this feeling.
Welcome to my everyday world! It's been nice having a visitor. I miss you now that you have come back to your wits!
Posted by: eeno at January 6, 2004 07:57 AMYour description of how you are feeling is exactly how I feel when my allergies and asthma are out of control. After feeling that way for the better part of a year, I've finally inched my way back to some degree of health, but it took a very careful evaluation of my diet and medications to do it. It might be something you are eating, or pollution from diesel or leaded fuels (which I have trouble with). I had trouble in India too, but was fortunate enough to be treated by a skillful Tibetan doctor (Dr. Yeshe Dhonden) who helped me.
However, it is just as likely that it is your mefloquine. I choose not to take it on my trips (although I have never been in an area with as high a risk as where you are) because I have heard from many seasoned travelers that it is a toss up as to which is worse: getting malaria or the mefloquine. It is really nasty stuff.
In any case, I hope you feel better!